keep it for myself

these feelings i keep it for my self
let others know nothing
well maybe they know the stories but they don't have to know more
it's so hard to tell it because i also don't know how to say it
after a year and 6 months, i feel this kind of feelings again .
this kind of feelings are special to me because i often feel it
the pain and the happiness
the sweet and the bitter taste
even i know that i'm not the one
even i know that he still in his past memories
even i know it's impossible
i enjoy it
i enjoy to waiting for nothing just because of you .
it's weird i know
Logic doesn't work in this case
either mathematic calculation
it's just about 'feelings'